Sitting in Isabele’s Coffee shop in Bethel, Maine waiting on videos to upload. I gotta use the restroom, then the creative juices will flow. Hopefully I’ll be less vulgar as well, hold on. Well now wait, there’s a girl in there now. She served me my turkey apple rueben sandwich, almost delicious. The apples were sour, I expected sweet. Tried to get over my expectations, couldn’t. However, the turkey was chunky, peeled right of the bone. Like a turkey sandwich the day after thanksgiving, it was nice. I think she’s done, hold on… well now I’m relieved, and a little less inspired than I thought I’d be. Somedays I know exactly what I’m doing, others the world is so big I think nothing can be done. It’s fun being human, and never really knowing what’s next, however nerve racking the experience. I looked at nora the other day and thought she knows what’s happening. I mean everything. The reasons why as well. It was simple and beautiful in her eyes. Then somebody sent me a link to a video that relates God to Dog. Yes, spell either one backwards and you get the other, how very clever. One created the other, both are mans best friend, both wait on man, both love man. This the video relayed. All I could think about was the God creating dog part… did he really create all this for us? Yeah, I’m not getting into this discussion. I don’t like God most days, he seems lost himself. His stories are so egotistical somedays. I created this for you to enjoy, you messed it up, let me send and kill my only son to save you, and the worlds gonna end any day now. I do like finding reason in life, but it doesn’t have to be because I was created. It could just be because I am, and can relate to you and them. The only reason that God seems necessary is the right and wrong we all know and feel. Those everyday concerns of “is this going to benefit or harm”, and we really don’t have a clue. Yet, it seems with each move, each way we choose, somedays end up bad and some good. I think that’s the relativity game, we have created comparison based on our feelings and response. Understanding that somethings are gratyfing and some not. But why must we try to relay that one is bad and one is good? Do you ever feel like your right there on the edge of knowledg’s horizon? about to see through it all. And then I get scared, knowing that ultimate knowledge is probably ultimately boring. However it doesn’t discourage me from trying to look over the edge just out of curiosity. What if you were the only one who didn’t know, the rest were playing the game to keep you wondering?
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May 10, 2010 at 10:16 pm
Isabelle
Jordan, why do you always refer to God as “he” ? Maybe it’s not necessarily a he or a she for that matter 😉 An all pervasive energy maybe ?
Same goes for sin, good & bad, right & wrong… Who says ? These notions are ingrained in christian dogma because it has always been a way of controlling people. And you’re right: it’s all very relative, precisely. Something “bad” for someone may be good for somebody else. I wouldn’t worry too much about the ultimate knowledge if I were you, I think it’s a loooooooong way 😉 And I don’t think it’s boring either. More like the more you know, the less you know…
May 11, 2010 at 11:56 am
jordansname
He, them, they, she… All the same at this point, your right. You don’t think there’s good and bad? Religion is used to control people as well as the concept good/bad, but aside from all that you feel good and bad in your own life? Otherwise our desicions are only arbitrary, where’s the relativety then?
May 11, 2010 at 3:19 pm
Isabelle
There is good and bad, of course, I’m not completely amoral ! But I don’t think there is “one rule fits all”. Otherwise, you easily get caught up in self-righteousness, and that’s pretty hard to live up to, since we all have good and bad within us. I just don’t think in terms of good and bad in my life, especially if it’s dictated by society or religion or whoever. I try to figure it out by myself according to my life experience. And that’s the hardest (or easiest) part, because I take on full responsibility for my actions. Decisions are arbitrary and relativity is everywhere (one doesn’t exclude the other). It’s all a matter of evolution, individual and collective. In the last century, everybody thought that beating a child with a stick or a belt was the right thing to do. Today, we know better, and it’s become a bad thing punished by the law. You see how things change ? Most notions of good and bad inspired by the scriptures (since we live in a judeo-christian society, everybody is subjected to that) are obsolete, I think. None of us knows what a person needs to go through to evolve and we always compare according to what we know. But we don’t know everything, do you accept that ? So some things are bad, but to a certain point. There is no absolute concept of what bad is (I’m obviously not speaking of killing someone). And sometimes bad becomes good and good becomes bad. It’s complex. For good measure, just throw in guilt, which is the byproduct of right vs. wrong, and you’ve got yourself a real reason to keep your head down.